This Weird Girl

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Category: Contemplations

  • Crossroad

    I read the Bible. I believe the Bible. I do my best to live by the Bible. I can’t remember ever not knowing God and being known by Him. I made a fully conscious decision to give my life to Christ at eight-years old, wearing my blue with white polkadot dress, fully immersed in a…

  • Backspace

    It’s me. Hi. I’m the problem. -Taylor Swift, Anti-Hero No, really. I’m the problem. I’m too much. I talk too much, say too much, share too much, laugh too loud, think too creatively, write too much. I’m constantly aware of how too-much I am and have to pull myself back. God, I have so much…

  • Fail

    Feeling like a failure sucks. As I was pregnant, breastfeeding, and 100% home, I had a clean house and gave a lot of hugs. But by 5 years, my ability to remain present began to crash. By 7 years, I entered my first mental health emergency care. By 10 years, I stopped making healthy food…

  • Fission Revisited

    I don’t know when I wrote this. Probably when I had PMDD. I want to hide myself to protect others.My mouth is a blowtorch.My mind is fission.How do I serve the Lord in love for others while also being a consuming fire?How can I be soft and stoney at the same time?Can God use a…

  • Jaywalking

    I’m a fast walker, fast doer, always trying to find the most efficient route to every destination. It’s no surprise that I’m a frequent jaywalker. For some reason, today is not one of those days. I took the long way and used the crosswalks. It’s my first day out in seven days. The air is…

  • Faith Identity Politics

    In the following pictures, those words were penned from my head yesterday while writing a letter to a friend. Many years ago I stopped calling myself a Christian, for I never knew what the hearer’s preconceived definition was of what a Christian is. There are so many false, skewed definitions of “christian” out there. Most…

  • Smoke and Mirrors and the Fourth of July

    I’m angry right now, because I’m frustrated, because I’m feeling out of control of the situation, because the school* is controlling our family, the school is controlled by the State and Federal governments, the State and Federal controls the education system [abolish the USDE!!] with their money, that they aquire by controlling our productivity (taxes),…