This Weird Girl

August 13, 1996.

That was the day I finally repented from believing I was the god of my own life and pledged to submit myself under the one true God.

A few days later, after some journaling and reading the book, “Good Morning, Holy Spirit,” I was sitting on the toilet with my Bible (no phones back then, lol) when I asked Holy Spirit to say something so I could know what it was like to hear His voice.

“Ephesians 6:13”

I was nervous as I flipped through my Bible. Is there even such a chapter? Or does Ephesians end at Chapter 5?

I memorized the names of the books of the Bible when I was 13, but I wasn’t familiar with how many chapters are in each book l (still not, to be honest).

Not only did He answer my prayer to hear His voice, He added an extra prophetic bonus! At the time I didn’t know He was giving specific instruction for my life and future. But today I’m looking back over my lifetime and seeing fulfillment, and even more instruction for how I am to live.

No big moment. No good story for the history books. Just a billion little “taking my thoughts captive” bubbles that appear and vanish before anyone can truly get a good look at them. An offense, a bad attitude, a lustful thought, an utterance of hatred- immediately turning away and choosing purity before God.

I didn’t do it to gain fulfillment. I did it because of love- love that sprung up in me because Love was within me. Not because I’m anyone special or more capable. Everyone has access to this! Ohhhhhh, the disgust I attribute to myself with what a sinner I am!!

But HIM! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! HE is the reason, and not myself, that the fulfillment of His promises is at my front porch.

a gift

Ephesians 6:11-14a

¹¹ Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

¹² For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

¹³ Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all to stand…

¹⁴ Stand.”