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  • So, what do you do on your short trips overnight to the city? I had the opportunity to do whatever I wanted while my husband was in a seminar. Apparently,  what I wanted was to sit and do nothing in a clean hotel room. I caught myself sitting in the corner for 2 hours and…

  • This poem is rough. I use some strong language. I won’t go into details about the context at the time (I’ll save that for my book), but you should know I had my first psychotic break (ever) the very next day and was hospitalized the following week. April 11, 2020 Violation is my nameGive it…

  • It’s hard being weird. I am often misunderstood and find out later that my words were hurtful to someone. The consequence of these discoveries over time has resulted in a deeply rooted sense of paranoia. I remember the words my mother always said when I was feeling shaky about my identity, “Honey, you’re not alone.”…

  • This poem was written in 2010, when I finally recognized my inner crazy wasn’t the result of my own failure, but of messed up hormones and lies I was believing about myself. How I was able to find a glimmer of hope in that season of my life only solidifies the testimony of the Holy…

  • She was the most incredible dreamBut then I woke upNow she’s a memoryA gift box, tied up Warm, pink cheeks, she looked at meWhen I spoke, she looked at mePeculiarI’ve known her all her lifeYet I don’t know her at all As they were stuffing my guts back inMy flesh and blood stared at me…

  • God gave us the wildflowersThey bloom in the SpringWe don’t always want them(interruptions, they bring)They speckle our lawnsThat we want to stay greenThey’re hardy as heckNo poison can seem… To kill them… To kill them… To kill them. God gave us the wildflowersThey’re here all year longWe don’t always want themThey do not belongThey speckle…

  •                The earliest memory I have of my childhood was being held by my dad. I must have been two or three years old, in the middle of the living room of our tiny mobile home. I can still feel the moment, straddled against my dad’s hip with his arms around me.                Warm. Strong.…

  • If you think I’m too much, this blog might not be for you. I’m too loud, too honest, too moody, too fun-loving, too transparent, too energetic, too talkative, too creative, too spiritual, and my social filter is likened to a storm drain- almost everything gets through. This blog is everything too much about my thoughts. It’s entirely self-centered…

  • Well, folks. When I have nightmares about my child being lost, or someone is dying, I’m always trying to use a rotary phone to dial emergency services. I was born in the 1970’s. Does anyone else remember trying to dial a number on a rotary phone only to get the last digit wrong? We have…